Are we subconsciously guilty of this? I cling to my past behaviors by subconsciously being guarded when it comes to men. I’m unaware at the time, but when I look back at the past, I can definitely understand when they say “why are you not open with me”. Being guarded is my defense mechanism for preventing an emotional roller coaster ride, but somehow, i’m always the first in line to buy a ticket (I questioned my own intelligence sometimes haha).
With men you never know, one minute they’re here and the next they’re gone and they leave you with riddles… Like wait, I was falling for you, come back; was this even real? Maybe that’s my problem, I fall too easily for men, which in return creates this guarded person, who I don’t want to be. When you’re unaware of your past behaviors your subconscious will gladly sabotage your current situation, not on purpose, but, just because she can.
As if life doesn’t give you enough lemons.