Do we Cling to past behaviors?

 

guardedAre we subconsciously guilty of this? I cling to my past behaviors by subconsciously being guarded when it comes to men. I’m unaware at the time, but when I look back at the past, I can definitely understand when they say “why are you not open with me”. Being guarded is my defense mechanism for preventing an emotional roller coaster ride, but somehow, i’m always the first in line to buy a ticket (I questioned my own intelligence sometimes haha).

With men you never know, one minute they’re here and the next they’re gone and they leave you with riddles… Like wait, I was falling for you, come back; was this even real? Maybe that’s my problem, I fall too easily for men, which in return creates this guarded person, who I don’t want to be. When you’re unaware of your past behaviors your subconscious will gladly sabotage your current situation, not on purpose, but, just because she can.

As if life doesn’t give you enough lemons.

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7 thoughts on “Do we Cling to past behaviors?

  1. What I’ve learnt – to my cost – on several occasions in my life, is that people will put up with all manner of behaviour so long as you’re giving them what they want. They’ll laugh and get into it and enjoy the anecdotes and the craziness and the mayhem as long as you’re doing your job well, but the minute you’re not, you’re fucked (pardon my language ). They’ll wipe their hands of you without a second glance.

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  2. Absolutely LOVE this line: Being guarded is my defense mechanism for preventing an emotional roller coaster ride, but somehow, i’m always the first in line to buy a ticket
    Your piece really hit home for me today, so, thanks for writing it!

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